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wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..
email.
me.
i'm brooke. a short, fatish, bisexual, feminist, pacifist, very-liberal activist. i have 4 cats. and 2 computers, 2 kayaks, 1 masters degree, multiple backpacks, and way too many books.
i live in the most beautiful eugene, oregon. i'm currently disabled due to treatment resistant severe depression. i've been blogging since election day of 2000.
i'm born and raised in the mountains of southwestern virginia. i could join the daughters of the american revolution, i don't think they'd like me cause i hear they like to throw tea parties instead of rallies and revolutions.
links.
lane co. bill of rights defense committee (lcbordc) ~
bill of rights defense committee ~
chel ~
lisa ~
carrie ~
cinnamon
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Friday, September 5
i'm up at 3.30am. i dont know why, i popped 1.5mg of xanax. i think i'll pop another 1/2. i want to sleep.
i got a huge compliment from hope, the woman who leads the lcbordc tonight. when i told her i wasn't going to the national conference because i want to save up my $$ and go to turkey for 2 weeks she was truly bummed, because she said she would miss my energy there. and she said she admires me. i'm simply blown away by that, because this is coming from a woman who is *the* leader in the state of oregon on the issues we deal with, and she's one of the leaders on a national scale too. and even if she weren't those things, i would still admire her as much as i do because of her true dedication and her seeming willingness to put all that she has and more into not only our cause, but many others too.
plus tonight when i was talking with her, i let my guard down just a little bit and told her that things were bad with me and my illness, far worse that i let on, and she wasn't put off. i told her thats why i wasn't getting things done for the lcobordc that i needed to get done and then i apologized for laying that on her, but her expression was one of kindness and compassion-- 2 things i so desperately crave.
so, my mind is all a flutter tonight. of many things. and i can't get it to shut down. maybe this last 1/2 of xanax will help. maybe this 80mg of strattera is not good for my system, it could be making me too wired.
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