wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..

Thursday, July 17
 
oh dear goddess. in 1 week i'll be on a plane, headed back east. i still have no idea what i'm going to do about transportation to and from portland.

i am starting to look forward to the trip. i think i'll be able to get a lot done, a lot read. i'm going to pick up "terrorism and the constitution" and print out all the safe and free series from the aclu. i'm also going to hunt down the inspector general's report about the illegal detainments that the leader of our group recommended reading.

i've just spent the last 2 evenings cutting and pasting from the vermont and alaska anti-upa resolutions to create a possible oregon resolution and a possible other city in oregon resolution. its been interesting work. i'm learning about the format of resolutions, the difference between a whereas and a resolved. and just now i went through the oregon revised statutes to find the exact sections that we refer to in two of our resolves. its good stuff, and i have to admit it would be way cool if a resolution i helped to work on got passed through the state legislature.

i spent all day monday installing moveable type onto our site so that it can be much easier to update. and now that i've got night time wind going i think i'm going to work on the template. i think i'm a bit manic. but that'll change right quick. with loneliness comes unmanicness.

i found out today some bad news and good news from my doc. the bad news is that she's been dropped from being a preferred provider of blue cross blue shield of oregon. that way pisses me off. all providers should be equal. i adore this woman, she works hard, she cares more about patients than the buck. she's not one of those doctors with lots of money, she's not rich. she's made a making money sacrafice in order to practice medicine with a decent heart. there aren't a lot of docs around like that anymore. and last week i told her about the usa patriot act and how it affects medical records and she wanted more information, so i brought it. and today i told her about us going to springfield and she said she'd tell her friends who live there about whats happening, and then i told her about us going to the state and she said she'd do what she could to help. she even wanted to read a larger document i had on the patriot act. she really cares.

the good news i heard from my doc was that she's one step closer to being able to participate in a study for a new anti-depressant. re: she'll have patients on this new drug. she told me about the drug and it sounds promising. it will be awhile before she finds out, but i've got some renewed hope. as she said to me today, when i asked about a drug--- because i would so much like a pill to help me stay lifted, i would so much like some help-- she reminded me that i've been through them all. so, maybe.. just maybe this new drug could help. its promising. we also talked about if she doesn't get accepted to the study we'll see about getting me the drug somehow. i've got a good case for asking for it.

and on that note, its late.