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wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..
email.
me.
i'm brooke. a short, fatish, bisexual, feminist, pacifist, very-liberal activist. i have 4 cats. and 2 computers, 2 kayaks, 1 masters degree, multiple backpacks, and way too many books.
i live in the most beautiful eugene, oregon. i'm currently disabled due to treatment resistant severe depression. i've been blogging since election day of 2000.
i'm born and raised in the mountains of southwestern virginia. i could join the daughters of the american revolution, i don't think they'd like me cause i hear they like to throw tea parties instead of rallies and revolutions.
links.
lane co. bill of rights defense committee (lcbordc) ~
bill of rights defense committee ~
chel ~
lisa ~
carrie ~
cinnamon
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Thursday, July 24
i so don't want to be on the east coast. a flaunt of friends through this house. people here still connected to this place here, me only because of family.
i drove through town today. it was nearly unrecognizeable. no, not because its changed, but because i've changed, because this isn't home, because i come here so unoften that my mind of this place is slowly diminishing.
yes, these mountains are beautiful. yes, this place, if hadn't already spent my time here- i would consider it. but i've done my time, and like i was as a child i am ready to escape it yet again. only this time, failures of childhood in the past and not the present but still painful nonetheless.
i live alone. a very solitary life, my unaccomplishments only faced as i please. now its in my face. all around me. and i escape to work. reorganizing pages on the lcbordc site, doing research, checking the news, reading books.. immersing myself in this newly found thing. its easier to be there than here.
and right now we're meeting and i'm not there. and i know i should be. big stuff afoot and i'm not there. its so much safer there. down in eugene.
i am so ready to go home.
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