wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..

Friday, June 27
 
its been a long few days.

max got the biopsy on wednesday. he came through it great, came home purring. he's still purring. i'm wondering what kind of drugs they gave him. i like him purring rather than his usual communication through different kind of growls. when the vet calls with the results of the biopsy i might very well ask her about this :)

my back is getting better. i managed through 4 hours of meetings today, 4 hours in a row, and didn't twitch much. its just now acting up right now. i've got an appointment with a physical therapist on tuesday. i'm still dealing with some numbness and tingiling in my right ring and pinkie fingers, i can actually feel most of my ring finger and the tip of my pinkie finger is sort of functional, and i've got all my feeling back in my palm. i've been spending a lot of time with my heating pad and taking vicodin every night. and even though the pain is nearly gone it will still be good to go in and see the pt because i don't know how it happened and i'm afraid of it happening again. i go back east at the end of july for 2 weeks and i do not want this to be an issue. also i want to head back to the y and i want to make sure that i'm not going to cause this again.

i've been busier than usual. i've really jumped into stuff with the lane co. bill of rights defense committee. i'm helping with a picnic that the friendly area neighbors for peace are putting on on july 4th. lcbordc is going to have a table and put up other information, along with having a speaker there. the picnic is a "citizens picnic" and is about reclaiming democracy, reclaiming this day, reclaiming our revolutionary history and how important the liberties that our foreparents faught so hard to create are. the very liberties that bush and ashcroft seem so intent on taking away. i testified in front of the lane county commisioners on why they should pass a resolution against the u.s.a.p.a.t.r.i.o.t. act and other federal and executive orders that come down that are unconstitutional and disregard the bill of rights. i think i did okay. there is another commisioners meeting next wednesday that i'll just be going to and then the next week they'll actually be voting on it. i hope it goes well, but after an email that came across today (thurs) its not going to go as easy as we thought. there's a lot of behind the scenes work that has to be done before the resolution is actually passed. what else? we've got a forum on friday (today) that i'm going to help at, i've got to make signs for the picnic at somepoint, and i volunteered to call all our endorsers to get them to the commisioners meeting to testify. i hate calling, but no one else seemed to want to do it, so i volunteered. it looks like i'm also going to take over the mailing list at some point and i'll be doing more with the website too.

by tuesday i've got to have something general, an outline at least, for the eugene - springfield pflag website. *agh* i've not even started it. monday. yes, monday. friday i won't get up till late and then i'm going to c's house for awhile, then the lcbordc forum. saturday i'm going to the market with a couple of friends, and then saturday night is a potluck / party which i intend to make bread for, so i'll be doing that saturday late afternoon / early evening. sunday i'm gonna go see my stepfather who is visiting his daughters up in corvallis. i've not seen him in over a year (cause he's currently working and living in ethiopia) which will be nice. though it'll be hard because i'll be seeing my stepsister's house, and being that i'm not moving forward in any sort of traditional measure of success its hard for me because i am a jealous person and my own home, a kid, a loving partner, and a successful career are the things i want the most and i'm not anywhere near any of those things. i do take comfort in the activist work that i'm doing.

my aunt sent me an invitation to a memorial service for my grandparents, which i'm not going to be able to attend. my grandparents ashes are being interred at st. marys episcopal church in portsmouth, ri in july. i wish terribly i could be with my family. my aunt sent the invitation along with 2 of my grandmother's handkerchiefs. the invitation had lots of pictures of them. brought tears to my face.

okay. thats it.