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wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..
email.
me.
i'm brooke. a short, fatish, bisexual, feminist, pacifist, very-liberal activist. i have 4 cats. and 2 computers, 2 kayaks, 1 masters degree, multiple backpacks, and way too many books.
i live in the most beautiful eugene, oregon. i'm currently disabled due to treatment resistant severe depression. i've been blogging since election day of 2000.
i'm born and raised in the mountains of southwestern virginia. i could join the daughters of the american revolution, i don't think they'd like me cause i hear they like to throw tea parties instead of rallies and revolutions.
links.
lane co. bill of rights defense committee (lcbordc) ~
bill of rights defense committee ~
chel ~
lisa ~
carrie ~
cinnamon
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Wednesday, June 18
i'm not posting much. i don't thiink people are reading. anyhow.
i'm still dealing with my back pain. its gotten less, but its still around. more in spasms, spasms that go off every few seconds. sharp pain. i think the chiropractor helped. i also got to see *my* doc, she gave me an anti-inflamatory. we're not sure how much its helping, so tommorrow (today) i'm not going to take it to see what happens, see if the pain is worse. my friend m gave me a nice massage, which helped too. i'm taking oxycodone once a day, which helps for a few hours. too. monday i've an appointment with a physical therapist. i'm still not sleeping well.. i wake up in the morning and think "yeah i get to get out of bed!" bed is the most painful place to be. my doc assures me im dealing with the pain fine- i dont want to be a wuss, i should be less focused on the pain cause its lessened, so i worry. but all in all she's probably right, because i am continuing with my regular activities and even moving forward with a couple of new projects- doing that and i'm not getting much sleep, not getting any rejuvinating, no.. re-- i'm not dreaming so essientally i'm only getting survival sleep. i do need to get to the gym, but esp. because i've not been going regularly i'm going to wait until i talk to the pt to find out what is okay to do..
this whole physical pain thing has caused me to get out of my head and into my body, which has been really good. i'm connecting with more people. tonight i went to a cuddle gathering and decided to be really gutsy and i jumped in and cuddled with people i didn't know. they are a regular group of people who cuddle, i hope they invite me back. it was nice to connect with such good hearts.
my stepfather comes next monday, he'll be in corvallis visiting his daughters (corvallis is 45 mi north of eugene). he's not seen them in over a year (he's working in ethiopia for a year and a half), so after a couple of days with them he's going to call me and we're going to get together. i can't wait to see him.
okay, it appears that the oxycodone is kicking in. this is good.
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