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wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..
email.
me.
i'm brooke. a short, fatish, bisexual, feminist, pacifist, very-liberal activist. i have 4 cats. and 2 computers, 2 kayaks, 1 masters degree, multiple backpacks, and way too many books.
i live in the most beautiful eugene, oregon. i'm currently disabled due to treatment resistant severe depression. i've been blogging since election day of 2000.
i'm born and raised in the mountains of southwestern virginia. i could join the daughters of the american revolution, i don't think they'd like me cause i hear they like to throw tea parties instead of rallies and revolutions.
links.
lane co. bill of rights defense committee (lcbordc) ~
bill of rights defense committee ~
chel ~
lisa ~
carrie ~
cinnamon
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Wednesday, May 14
blogger ate 3 posts yesterday.. rivervision has been down for at least 24 hours, this is not good in cyber land.
my life sucks. 2 weeks ago i called my so called best friend, r, and said to her that someone i trust, c, gave me the advice that we shouldn't be best friends anymore. she couldn't talk then.. i would have thought she would have called, but she hasn't. i've talked to a few people in the last 2 weeks, most recently i talked to c again. the issue has been that r is really flakey about our friendship, but she's always there in a crisis. i have to jump through hoops to get to spend time with her as she's really busy. its like she doesn't want to spend the time with me. so, today i talked to c again about the situation.. told her r hasn't called. she pointedly said that this is a sign about how r feels about our friendship.. she doesn't care about it. i'm not sure what to do at this point.
and then there's the whole everyone else is moving forward in some way and i'm not. buying houses, working fulfilling jobs, getting married, having kids.. i'm just on the shore watching them. i'm not a success personally, professionally, financially. nothing is happening. i'm alone and disabled. i hate my life.
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