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wish i may
i might
make a wish upon a star tonight..
email.
me.
i'm brooke. a short, fatish, bisexual, feminist, pacifist, very-liberal activist. i have 4 cats. and 2 computers, 2 kayaks, 1 masters degree, multiple backpacks, and way too many books.
i live in the most beautiful eugene, oregon. i'm currently disabled due to treatment resistant severe depression. i've been blogging since election day of 2000.
i'm born and raised in the mountains of southwestern virginia. i could join the daughters of the american revolution, i don't think they'd like me cause i hear they like to throw tea parties instead of rallies and revolutions.
links.
lane co. bill of rights defense committee (lcbordc) ~
bill of rights defense committee ~
chel ~
lisa ~
carrie ~
cinnamon
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Wednesday, May 28
okay, i feel like shit. my brother and i were talking today and he said he was tired of hearing about how my life sucks. this whole trip back home is stressing me out.. because i'm no longer successful. i could go to the beach with my dad after portsmouth, but i don't want too. thats a lot of people, a lot of successful people. its going to be hard enough being at the beach for a week with my mother's family and my life sucking, i simply can't take 2 weeks of it. my family tries to make light of it, trying to tell me that my life isn't a failure, but i see that as a load of bullshit. brother has a job he loves, a wife he loves. mother, father, stepmother, stepfather are all ph.d.'s. all the stepsiblings are moving forward in one way or another. anyhow, brother z is tired of hearing about how i hate my life. i think he would have a different perspective if he were in my shoes. but that lucky s.o.b. won't ever be in my shoes, he didn't get the depression neurochemistry. oh yeah, and he was the one who got therapy in high school, the one who was sent off to boarding school because he was failing out. he still has friends from high school. me, i had no friends in high school, except for my much older paddling buddies, and my parents essientally ignored me except when it came to my boating. didn't matter that i almost failed my junior year. yeah, i still have some bitterness, esp. when i feel this crappy.
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